Re visiting

So it has been over 6 weeks since I wrote about how I felt about my weight . I have been procrastinating and yesterday i finally got the  courage  to do the 30 day shred and boy did it really wring me out. I have started this morning with a bottle of water, something I don't usually do. Food has been bad in the last 6 weeks I have been eating loads of junk. I downloaded a book on my kindle called tackling overeating and food addiction. I have an addiction to food ....I  have a healthy addiction, I have an unhealthy addiction. I go through stages when I eat what is good for me and then I eat what is bad. I eat emotionally and I want it to stop. I have been researching lots of ways on how to lose weight a lot of conflicting scientific reasoning on the Internet. The diet or lifestyle choiced at the moment seems to be ketogenic, paleo ,low carb high fat.

I will be starting off with lchf and see how it works for me

This mornjng I started off with a cup of..

Fatty coffee

Serves 2

20g of coconut oil
20g of unsalted butter
100 ml double cream
2tbsp sweetner
1 tbsp coffee
Hot water for 2 servings

Blend together and serve

That moment of realisation..

Pop, it finally hit me.

I was sat in bed last night looking at how jelly like my arms were and it hit me as I was snacking down on calorific shortbread. I really don't want to look like this any more. I woke up this morning and the cramps were back. I am using the toilet a shed load and its not due to water weight..could it be diabeties?

How many times do I have to do this. I need to lose over a 100+ lbs and it needs to be for real. My biggest loss has been 40 lbs so far and I gave up and regained 28 lbs.

My short term goal is 60 lbs. I want to lose it by the time walking dead is back on the screens.

I have another blog and it is about my love of food and don't know if I should carry it on as my family will not be joining me on this weight loss journey I will still be cooking carbs etc but will it be too much temptation or is it me being weak will to learn that it is mind over matter and I want to live. My daughter has eczema and trying out this diet other can also see if she has an intolerance to wheat and that is causing her skin condition.


I am researching LCHF and it is a Scandinavian diet that has become mainstream in the USA. So hopefully it will be easy to follow here in the UK.

This is my journey and writing this blog is making me accountable for the road ahead

Starting Weight 304lbs
Mood, positive

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